Public sentiment surrounding the Gaza conflict is characterized by profound sorrow and anger towards both the humanitarian crisis affecting civilians and the perceived inaction from international leaders. Many commenters express solidarity with the Palestinian population while condemning the violence from both Hamas and Israeli forces. The overarching message is a demand for immediate humanitarian aid, justice, and accountability, with frustration directed at government actions perceived as hypocritical or ineffective.

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You should write or ghost-write an article for The New Yorker, or The Atlantic, or any major publication that would agree to publish it, about the reality of the Arab world.

i wish everyone would read the graphic novel The Arab of the Future.  Been there, lived it, totally on target.

snowplowmom

OP join us at OLAM, a network for Jewish humanitarian aid workers. You aren’t alone in this situation. https://www.olamtogether.org/

EDIT: I’m a member. Joined after I was forced to resign from a senior leadership role in the development sector due to post-7/10 Jew hate. This group honestly saved me. I was so disillusioned and shamed for my career path, left alone and confused. Came here and so much clicked. Melding my identities, Jewish and professional in a way that got lost (rather was forced to stay hidden). I’m a little obsessed with this group and truly can’t say enough about their work and network.

melting-lychee

You are not a fuckwit. You embody what a vast majority of Jews are all about: Making the world better for everyone, and peace. 

I try to tell people that they don’t understand who we are dealing with and that antisemitism is rampant in all of the places that should embody humanitarianism. Most don’t believe me or understand. Reality is so messed up that it’s quite simply unbelievable. I’m sorry you had to learn this in person and in such a traumatic way. You’re at home here (and in Israel FYI). Nobody could ever take that away from you.

gettheboom

&gt;or if I even deserve to get better.

Of course you do. 

&gt; I don’t believe in god anymore, 

That's ok

&gt;and I have a really bad trauma response if I try to go to any Jewish cultural space.

I don't know if you feel guilt or shame &amp; that's what prevents you, but don't let hypocrisy or antisemitism steal your identity from you, that's how it wins. I hope you can find a trauma-informed therapist with a background in antisemitism to work through this. The people most likely to support you &amp; understand this are going to be found in Jewish spaces, so don't deny yourself that.

ErnestBatchelder

Israel saved Yahya Sinwar. There are still groups of Israelis working to get Palestinians to hospitals, even after all this. You have been deeply betrayed by people and ideals you trusted - of course your foundations are shaken. Of course you are struggling. But through it and despite it, you did not forget who you are and who we are. You remembered that to save a life is among the highest good you can do, and you remembered it twice: once to help those suffering even when it was deeply hard, and once to save yourself when you knew you could not live this way anymore. Pirkei Avot reminds us that we both cannot refuse to do the work of healing the world and that we cannot finish it on our own, and you have remembered that. Yasher koach, achoti - what strength and bravery that is, sister. You've done nothing to require shame or absolution, not at all. I hope deeply that you are getting, or at least seeking, the support you need. 

I know you are struggling with Jewish spaces, but if you think it could help, I wonder if it would be worth it to visit a mikvah. It is a space of transition and purification, and if you are feeling this kind of ache and stain, it may help you to step into that space. There are egalitarian mikvaot all kinds of places if that would appeal to you. 

Shabbat shalom. Truly. Try to find some peace today. You are doing okay, and you're not alone.

sweet_crab

You are absolutely not a fuckwit and I can't tell you how incredibly strong you are. You endured so much hate from your colleagues in the name of helping the civilians who have been caught in the crossfire of this devastating war. You are not wrong for going and are not wrong for leaving. 


Someone suggested to you write an anonymous article or op-ed about your experience and I absolutely concur. I, like many people, would love to donate money to feed the very people you tried to help, but not if that money will go to an organization that will allow its Jewish colleagues to endure such hate. It would be good for people to know where their money is actually going.


If anyone is a true humanitarian, *it is you*. You went to help people because you genuinely believed in protecting them, even if they did not feel the same towards you. Your colleagues, on the other hand, are despicable. Hatred of any kind has no place in that kind of work. Humanitarian work is not transactional or conditional and their behavior is appalling. I'd hate to find out how'd they'd treat Zionist refugees. 


I'm really sorry you're going through this. PTSD is common among humanitarian workers and I hope you can find help. I'm glad you're doing better in Ukraine, those people need you too. And if you feel like you need a break from it all, please don't hesitate to take one.

Electrical_Pomelo556

Hi, I work in Middle East policy and I also a former journalist - if you ever decide to write something about this and want help writing or editing, please get in touch.

ksalana

Your experience proves that no Jew will ever be “Pro-Palestine” enough for antisemites. You literally provided humanitarian aid to Gazans and it still wasn’t enough.

ThoughtsAndBears342

I'm so sorry. You're not stupid, just, and I mean this in love, naive. Or were. Most of us were and those who weren't were labeled as Islamaohobic or worse. I hope you find healing and hope

DadSouls83

I don’t know if this is unpopular or not, but I’ll say it anyway: Gazan civilians deserve humanitarian aid. No one sane argues that. But they also have a government that failed them catastrophically. The second that aid gets hijacked to glorify terrorism, fund Hamas, or become a propaganda tool, it stops being humanitarian and becomes complicity.

You went in with integrity and compassion. What you endured was inexcusable: open antisemitism, exclusion, gaslighting, and betrayal from people who claim to stand for human rights. They failed every moral and ethical standard. That wasn’t “anti-Zionism.” That was raw, ugly antisemitism. And it thrives in exactly the spaces that pretend to be “progressive.”

I say this as someone who’s been a progressive Democrat my entire life until October 7 shattered my faith in what that label has come to mean.

You did the right thing. They didn’t. You have nothing to be ashamed of. They should be ashamed.

pr0tag

wow i’m so sorry. you should really consider contacting someone to write or speak about your experience, if you feel comfortable. I’m sure there are anonymous routes you could go as well. again, if you’re comfortable. 

this is disgusting behavior and shows a culture of antisemitism and virulent jew hatred. i’m so so sorry you had to deal with this amount of hatred. it’s appalling and disgusting.

avidreader2004

Isn’t it fascinating that the people who truly care about neutrality are Jews?

I’m Zionist. I want two states. I want peace.

Menemsha4

You were duped. It's ok.  You still have the right to be Jewish, ESPECIALLY because you learned from your experience.  You have really valuable information to share with there rest of us.  I'm so sorry you went through this. Therapy might be helpful, but please find a pro-Israel therapist, so you don't get any more hate!

HeyyyyMandy

You’ve received a lot of responses with advice and opinions. I hope you find them helpful. 

All I want to say is: what you experienced was fucked up. I’m sorry this was done to you.

Am-Yisrael-Chai

I am so sorry you have been hit this hard. I have seen many Jewish influencers posting about mental health support catered to Jews post 7/10. I understand you have ptsd and don’t want to engage with jewish spaces, but be careful who you are seeking mental health care from, I would recommend a Jewish practitioner to avoid encountering antisemitism in such a delicate matter.

Could it be of any help to contact Jews in your field and hearing about their coping mechanisms?

a_guenda

I acknowledge the strong humanitarian drive in you. I think it's fantastic what you do. For sure your actions will help peace in what ever small way. 

I am glad you got to have that experience in Jordan. It cannot be easy, having to hide who you are (and here I'm thinking back to when I was in the closet as a teenager-omg the tension), and I'm glad you are in a much better place.  
  
It's certainly opened your eyes. And it's understandable that you wouldn't feel like being in Jewish spaces following such an experience; 'I get this for being Jewish so it would be better to ramp it down'. 

I would suggest that perhaps you could see if you can go to synagogue. For sure that will affirm your identity. You don't have to believe in HaShem, but being around other Jews is going to help you. 

I wish you all power, and I wish you safety.

DandyHorseRider

jtal888

I’m so sorry this happened to you. I also have PTSD from 10/7 and I started EMDR therapy to process my trauma. It has helped so much. I urge you to seek a trauma therapist so you can start healing. You’re not alone, you have a whole community of people, the Jewish connection is so strong. We are all brothers and sisters and we are in this together. 

AnjunaNirvana

&gt; I was super naive, and I feel like I helped people who only ever wished me harm. 

At least you're lucky enough to realize this and get out. Some don't realize this until people they were trying to help are cutting their throat.

MedvedTrader

I work in for a humanitarian organization in the US. I have felt extremely torn with the conflict there. You went in with an intention of neutrality and did what you needed to do. Do not blame, feel guilty or call yourself terrible things. You were there on the ground and I can guarantee made a difference for those struggling. Thank you for your service and please consider prioritizing your own mental health. I have dealt with many people, even within my own jewish community that have been quick to blame the humanitarian organizations involved on the ground there without considering the well intentioned people on the ground doing the work you did.

Axe_Em_ERock

I totally feel this. I didn’t work in the humanitarian sector, but I was in a lot of very deeply left progressive circles and it took less than 24 hours for them to show me that all of the work I had done with them would never be reciprocated in any way had I ever needed it- even though I did and still I truly believe in equality for all different types of people from all walks of life, races, colors, religions, sexual orientations and gender identities….because I was a Jew. I echo the sentiments of some others here who say please do not deny yourself the support you need and deserve because you feel uncomfortable for whatever reason  to walk inside a synagogue. Maybe a synagogue isn’t the right venue and that’s okay. Before October 7, I would’ve called myself a progressive secular American Jew. Now I’m an American Zionist Jew who is loud and proud about it. I refused to hide and the only way I’m able to do it is through the support of some amazing people that I found online on Jinstagram believe it or not. A Jewish therapist would probably be helpful as well. I can find you the link to that if you want you can PM me sending you lots of love. You did nothing wrong.

Next_Alarm2427

&gt;  don’t believe in god anymore, and I have a really bad trauma response if I try to go to any Jewish cultural space. I couldn’t imagine trying to go to a synagogue. 

I really very rarely would suggest people go to therapy but in your case: yes. Find a NON-PROGRESSIVE, preferably Jewish, who knows, maybe even a frum, psychologist, and talk it out. Make ABSOLUTELY sure, before you go, that they are not into progressive and "I can criticize Israel if I want to" causes. That's not for you right now.

You became a lot less naïve and a lot more in touch with the real world. You are Jewish and that brought you a lot of unpleasant experiences, as it did for most Jews over the course of history. The important outcome is what are you going to make of it. One option is to hide your Jewishness, stop living a Jewish life, like many Jews did after catastrophes. The other option is to rethink your worldview, overcome the trauma, set your priorities straight and live your life as a proud, dedicated and strong Jew.

intercptr

In Jordan?  Yeah it's just openly Antisemitic and proud of it.

bakochba

I’m sorry. It’s sad, but I think you found that many of these people who consider themselves so PC and kind are really just getting paid in self-righteousness.

TeddingtonMerson

Your feelings are valid. You are not stupid. A version of this has happened to all of us, and to all of my Israeli friends in humanitarian spaces. This is how Amnesty Israel broke away from the international organization. Everything is rotten, everywhere.

thepinkonesoterrify

I am genuinely sorry for what you've experienced. What you experienced is the reality of the middle east, unfortunately. I'm from the MENA region, and honestly antisemitism is the norm here. But that is not because people here are so bad and immoral but because they are fed with continuous extremism (religious and nationalistic) and disinformation from a very, very young age. You are good at heart, and it's better for you to direct your humanitarian work to Ukraine. Stay safe and continue your fantastic work and personality.

2ndr0

Hi, I’m Ukrainian. Thank you for helping Ukraine. We have one of the largest Jewish communities in Europe. I’m not Jewish, just lurking. I think you’d do good with a therapist :)

AnnaBananna3

Your heart is in the right place, so don’t feel guilty for trying to do what is right.

HungryDepth5918

Hi, a Jew from Ukraine here! Thank you very much for joining the Ukraine response! My parents are in Kharkiv. And no doubt you see, hiw many Jews there still are in Ukraine! 
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

Charkiw1654

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Definitely write about your experiences and send them to the Jerusalem post so it gets printed

EditorPrize6818

My heart goes out to you. I imagine you chose this line of work as you have a big heart. Tikkun olam is a guiding principle for us. 
Sounds like you need some healing - therapy, somatic or what not. 
I do recommend using this experience for awareness and exposing the hate that’s happening is so key to change. Please speak out, even if it’s anonymously. 
Sending you all the love - am Israel chai and slava Ukraine.

rosaluxx311

You’ve done your part and have no obligation to ever serve in a hostile environment again. You’re allowed to invest your time and energy in saving yourself rather than strangers. You’re allowed to find a new path for your life’s work that that will nurture instead of break your spirit.

DiotimaJones

LightFlaky2329

Jews will always be treated as the asterisk, as the exception not the rule (in a bad way), and unwelcome by other in-groups. Antisemitism is so ingrained in people’s DNA it is hard for us to truly eradicate it. Try to see that all as objective fact that you needed to learn to truly protect yourself. Your experiences sound truly terrible, but if you are looking for any kind of silver lining, it is good to lose the naivety in a way that you could safely extricate yourself from that dangerous situation. You haven’t lost the heart of Jewish values as you still are working on tikkun olam. You just redirected it to people worthy of your hard efforts, who value all of who you are and not just what they could try out of you.

Shanninator20

Holy shit!  You are an amazing person.  Most people would not have attempted working within such a hostile space.  You showed great love and compassion in how u handled yourself there.  I think, too, that you need to balance your humanitarianism with some selfishness.  It was good that you left and are caring for yourself now.  Please give yourself the empathy u give to others

Anders676

I feel the pain You are a good person, a solid Jew. Good people are bothered by the shitty fucked up world, they judge their behavior and fear that they are contributing to the wrong cause, and bad people don't, it's that simple.
Find a Jewish psychiatrist or therapist to talk through all these, that would be my suggestion for talking care yourself. They may give you medications, just take it, for keeping yourself together, or just for a good sleep.

kittielisA

You are a giant of a person, a true mensch, and what happened to you was so deeply wrong. I'm glad you got out of there and into a more meaningful situation and wish I could send you a few dozen cookies or something to bring a little light into your day. You deserve only good things.

spring13

If you need a social justice oriented Jewish friend, hi! I would love to be friends.

I’m sorry you had this experience.

sarahkazz

Sorry this happened to you OP. What upsets me most is walking down my Safe city and seeing signs and Protests all supporting Gaza not knowing exactly what the situation is like.  At this point I’m convinced 90% of the Protesters are doing it for something to do and parroting the current Fad.

Oscarwilder123

mysteriouschi

If you want to talk about whatever DM me.

-drunk_russian-

I'm so sorry you had to endure that abuse and hatred. I'm also sorry that you had your belief system shattered.

# Yes, you deserve to heal. You are a good person who was maybe a little naive, but that doesn't change the good and decency in your character.

There are many Jewish organizations that could use your skills and compassionate heart, and wouldn't destroy your insides like that. You would be loved and appreciated if you applied all of that to a Jewish organization in need

UnicornStudRainbow

Brave_World2728

I'm very moved by your story and relate in many ways. I'm a traditional French Jew who made Aliyah. I'm half Ashke (Polish Shoah survivor grandchild) and half Sepha (Algerian), so I got double guilt-tripped for not eating my gefilte fish and for not finishing the sixth platter of it at the Shabbat seder.

Jokes aside, I grew up in the public system in one of the toughest cities in France (places called "ghettos," though not in the Jewish sense; it was 10% Christian and 90% Muslim). I experienced **everyday** antisemitism, violent and constant from a young age. I had to hide and lie about my name to survive. I heard antisemitism and terrorism apologies everywhere: school, work, the gym... grocery stores, you name it.

I **HATED** being Jewish.  
I built walls and became paranoid and, toward the end of my nihilistic path, I even avoided Jews or Jewish spaces,  as you call them, to not be a target of more violence. I was scared of being "discovered" or becoming a victim of attacks, which happened often enough around. I developed a deep distrust of non-Jews or, at the very least, stayed on high alert for any shift in behavior.

Long story short (I promise it's not just about me; I’m making a point): I healed and overcame many of my dilemmas and PTSD, but not alone. And you're not alone in your feelings!

I don't have real advice on the path you should take (and I feel others have been way more eloquent here already), but I've never felt as good and free of that weight as when I spent time with fellow Jews. I started small, friends' places, maybe a Shabbat here and there with small groups, nothing religious, just no-pressure time with (our) people. I reached out to traditional orgs and went to their events (parties, concerts, fundraisers etc). Honestly, I probably needed a therapist too lol! but I just wanted to feel safe—not scared of others, of who I am, or of revealing my inescapable identity.

I hope you can start small and find support from those who are here to lift you up around you, the same way you showed unconditional support for others. One step at a time, and the weight should ease a little more each time.

Honestly, I thought Judaism was only negative, but now I **KNOW** it's only negative plus one good thing: at least we have each other, and it always feels good when we are together.

Thank you for being part of us. Much heartfelt love to you, and godspeed in your recovery.

SexTomate

I would love to chat with you about this. I work for a nonprofit that works in Israel and we oftentimes bring in speakers with stories like yours. Would really love to gain more insight from you 🤍

chitlvlou_84

I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. 

The work you did was an unambiguously good thing. Getting out of there was also a good thing. 

You deserve to get better. 

You are a very good person. 

And if you’re open to it, I highly recommend reaching out to some publications to share your story. It is an important one, and a fascinating one. I think it would be good for people to hear it.

jwrose

You didn’t do anything wrong. You have nothing to feel guilty for or ashamed about. Trauma brain falsely turns your justified shock and anger for how you were treated inward. It victim shames and victim blames. You are that victim. Be proud that you went to the region and helped. Be proud that you’ve chosen a career doing this type of necessary and important work. Thank you for doing it.

ShmaryaR

Your heart is beautiful and you are kind; it is in jewish nature to want to help people and so it is admirable that you have moved over to the Ukraine response. That is huge - i just want to give you gentle holding and let you know your emotions are valid. 

Maybe it is time for more self-care - you are working in another trauma-zone and maybe that is going to exacerbate your PTSD and maybe you deserve some gentle time by the seaside for some days or weeks or months. 

take care and big hugs.

Recent-Base2830

I full hardly believe that hamas attacked Israel expecting the response they received. They want to take over the world, and unfortunately they are succeeding. Too many people believe their lies, and won't even take 2 minutes to learn the actual truth. I'm in Canada, and can't believe people voted in an antisemitic party. Canada will go down like the titanic if something isn't done. Many other countries are in similar boats, or already over taken. Be strong, don't even think about those antisemitic brainless zombies(my word for all the Palestinian supporters). I do recommend going to Israel, although I personally haven't been they are very welcoming, and will treat you with respect. Hugs I wish you the best of luck.

LowTutor2184

How awful. I'm so sorry that you had to go through all that.

Efficient-Being855

It’s important to seek out support, and likely that needs to come in the form of therapy by someone who understands the conflict and the Jewish plight, if you’re not already in it. Speaking personally, it’s really helpful.

Careful_College_2238

Humanitarian aid never gave shit about Jewish lives. The red cross confirmed Auschwitz was fine. When the British starved the survivors to not let them get to Israel, it was fine. When an entire generation of posttraumatic Israelis grew here, no one gave a damn. My grandpa has a story himself from 1939 when a Nazi soldier was the one to force the red cross to treat him, but tbf no one involved knew he was jewish. Being a care provider doean't necessarily mean you care

Quadruple_A1994

Just writing to send you a hug and lots of love. ❤️
I understand the trauma, but maybe trying to get back in touch with your people can help you. Together we are stronger.
I wish you the best in getting through this shock and being able to surround yourself with good people. A big hug 💕

shushi77

Wow, that's... Really, really awful. I'm so sorry

hey maybe an Israeli Human right activist could help you in some advice I could connect if you would want

avshalombi

I’m so sorry that happened. Please get professional help! You deserve to heal, you deserve to feel safe. ❤️❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻

Born_To_Be_Wild777

Have you ever considered speaking about what you saw there?  Your testimony could do a lot of good. Let me know if you’re interested because I could definitely connect you to some journalists.

I also respect the fact that you tried to help people even though they made it clear that they don’t see you as human.

Feel free to reach out if you need to talk, I’m here for you.

hindamalka

Sending you love and healing. You are strong and whenever you are ready to receive it, your community is there to support you

Daisydoolittle

I strongly thionk you did nothibng wrong by helping civilians.

Melthengylf

I’m genuinely curious about the fact that after October 7th, in where a barbaric massacre took place , a country’s sovereignty was breached, citizens taken hostage and you decided to work for the other side? In all your years of humanitarian work in the Middle East and you still believed that people are neutral? How is that even possible?

No_Item_4728

Side question. When you started humanitarian work in Ukraine, was the vitriol targeted at Russians similar to what you heard about Jews in Jordan in any shape or form?

Goupils

After all the beautiful comments, I don't have much to add, except to say that you're not alone and that I'm saving your words because you explained the inner turmoil so well. You're not alone. Thank you for sharing and for your work in the world.

huggabuggabingbong

I'm very barely in Jewish culture, and my sister and I are the first generation in my family to try to reconnect to our history. That being said, one of the things passed down that I know is from our Jewish ancestry is to forgive and help, even people who want to kill us. Never again wasn't a promise just for Jews, it was for all humans. Keep being such an amazing person.

pr1nt3rJ

Jewish cultural spaces are the places that would welcome you.

arrogant_ambassador

You are a righteous person, OP. I have so much respect for you, and I'm so sorry that you were treated like that. In a strange sort of way, it's a very Jewish experience. You got so much hate from people, but did good for them anyway. Idk how religious you are, but it personally reminds me of what the prophet Isaiah said about the Jewish people suffering because of other peoples' sins but simultaneously healing them. Thank you for service.

Consistent_Bet_8795

Powerful, moving post.

I'd recommend reading [Life Is A Test](https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1422606090?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=j0em-20), [Angels In Orange](https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1422639959?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=j0em-20), and [Miracles, Missiles and Mesiras Nefesh](https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1422643204?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=j0em-20) - these will lift your spirits!

TorahHealth

You are an amazing person! 🇮🇱 thank you 🙏 for all the good work you have done and still do!

An_Ok_Outcome

Confident-Skin-6462

You are not alone! There are dozens (if not hundreds) of Jewish humanitarian/international development/human rights employees who feel the same way. I work at OLAM and have spoken and supported many. Feel free to DM me and I can share more information.

A group of us (mainly those in the (or formerly in the) human rights world put out this article in The Atlantic: https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2025/03/ngos-anti-israel-bias/682148/
Unfortunately it doesn't seem to have caused many waves, but it's a start in calling out the antisemitism in these organizations that are so-called neutral and impartial. 

Sending hugs.

DistrictDame9716

I am so sorry you went through this.🙏🏻

Cute-Football-8597

Feel embraced if you like. I wish you wouldn't have to experience that and that the feelings of being outcast can be dropped, that there is a way for you to find connections.

I do not want to take away from your plight, but can attest you that you are not alone in your experiences. Friends of mine and me, too, had the experience that Jewish life didn't matter to many that were antisemitic but demanded to be the ones to decide what is and isn't antisemitic. 

You helping others and trying to be the best version of yourself, trying to bridge gaps, but also learning about how the world is and to care for you are beautiful. To me you will be an inspiration.

OliveOilVirgin

&gt;I’m not sure how to heal from this, or if I even deserve to get better. I don’t believe in god anymore, and I have a really bad trauma response if I try to go to any Jewish cultural space. I couldn’t imagine trying to go to a synagogue.

Of course you deserve to get better, and you will. And about not believing in G-d anymore, don't worry, I've also been there in the past. At the right time you'll reconnect with HaShem and the rest of the Jewish community, which is going to be a part of your revival and no more the cause of grief and trauma. I hope you heal and eventually find your way back into the community and reconnect with the faith in one way or another. May HaShem bless and guard you. You're not alone.

biel188

You are a hero for your humanitarian heart in the face of raw bigotry. Naive? Sure. But that’s no crime. Please be kind to  yourself. The world needs more people like you.

scribedawg

I am Jewish from Ukraine, where I experienced a lot of antisemitism growing up. It was not religious because Ukraine was part of the Soviet Union, where the official ideology was atheist. And it was not cultural because Jews at that time were culturally assimilated. No, it was ethnic. People believed that Jews as an ethnic group were evil and should be thrown out. They were good at identifying Jews by their looks. You also had you Jewish last name and your nationality written in your documents. There were many scary encounters. Jews were also discouraged from getting into universities and getting desirable jobs. This last thing, quotas agInst Jews, was getting progressively worse. Anyway, it doesn’t surprise me to see Ukrainian nationalists wear nazi tattoos. This is apropos your going to Ukraine. By the way, Ukraine  onsistently voted against Israel in the UN. I don’t think they voted pro Israel even once. Israel is a completely different topic. But you know, if you are hated foryour ethnicity - your DNA - that you had no choice of selecting on birth, it’s not completely strange that you would want there to be a sanctuary somewhere in the world for people who are like you.

BlueIceofAntarctica

If you're Jewish you will always be hated. No matter where, no matter when. If ur in a work place and ur the only Jew, they will make fun of u to ur face or behind ur back. It's part and parcel to being Jewish, we are hated.

mitchr09

if it's any consolation, I talked to someone who works for MSF and she told very similar stories. People that she had worked with closely for years celebrating the attacks on their internal chat, being called a "genocidaire" when she protested, people openly mocking the hostages and the victims of the attacks. 

Racism is a terrible thing. American Jews have been classified as white since we arrived here so TBH we're just not used to it. Trauma is an appropriate and normal response to being dehumanized and threatened with violence. 

You're not crazy - the world is crazy. And there is absolutely no limit to what people will do in order to blame their problems on other people.  Surround yourself with people who love you and who love our people - the good and the bad. 

happypigday

FWIW, I don’t think you’re a fuckwit. Vivian Silver and many others who deliberately lived in close proximity to Gaza for humanitarian purposes gave their lives to this work. It is an extremely admirable and Jewish trait to repair the world, even at your own detriment. But as much as we are commanded to do mitzvot (predominantly, albeit, for the betterment of the community which pledges the same,) we are also commanded to self-care:  “Guard yourself and guard your soul very carefully” (Deut. 4:9). (mind you, I’m not terribly religious, but more philosophical) 

I think it’s perfectly okay to live in your truth and find time for your own healing. There is no shortage of suffering in this world - it does not have to be that you do so in a space that hits this close to your chest and weighs heavier on you. As my therapist said recently as I lamented over not being afraid to do hard things following multiple surgeries, not everything has to be hard! It’s okay to take the quicker route and not the scenic ones very time just because they aren’t prettier! 

Hope this helps 🙏🏼

Queasy_Ad_7297

You should not feel any shame though i understand it. Your heart was in the right place. We jews believe in helping others and making the world a better place. You fellow jews will welcome you and want to support you. Reach out to chabad

ComeonUSA

This is so very human. You are on the path to healing. Keep being the good person that you are, keep venting, and focus on the good you're doing in Ukraine. Your sense of self is never truly crushed... it may be hard to grasp it right now, and it may have been altered. But you will find yourself again, and you will come out even stronger than you ever imagined.

me_when_anon

Wow.  I'm so.sorry you had to go through all of that.  But I applaud you for always being open minded and helping the gazan civilians.
Try not to let the assholes around us change you into them.

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SatisfactionDry3038

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HelloInquisitive

You were not naive, just a good person. You did nothing wrong and none of this is your fault. Don't let the bastards get to your.

Nihilamealienum

YoMommaSez

Dealing with racists of any kind is a fucking pain. I would honestly have just brought Jewish food to the potluck and said fuck you. They have no right to discriminate against you for being Jewish.
However, it’s worth asking if you actually worked in Gaza? Because I hope you understand that living conditions in Gaza are a living hell of disease and rubble. The IDF would probably “accidentally” air strike you, as they have done to other aid workers.
I thought you were going to say that meeting children whose entire families have been killed is what crushed you.

Effective-Band-4090

At the end of the day it's not about doing the right thing. When you're Jewish it's you against the world. All those Jews tokenize their heritage only to make friends and keep their asses safe will see who's on their side when there will be no other Jews to protest against.
Israel is here for the long run and we are welcoming anyone else who wants to come here to be a part of something. I don't know if you'll ever connect back to your religion but if you want to be a part of the community that will take you in no matter what you know where we are.

Oasis_Mii

If you aren't in therapy, PLEASE go. You have nothing to feel guilty about. You wanted to help people in need. It is not your fault that they turned out to be awful people. Perhaps finding a shul that streams services, so you could attend from a safe space. 

TearDesperate8772

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Leading_Gazelle_3881

I'm sorry you went through that. One thing I will say is that clientitis is real. Some people spend so much time in a region or on a particular conflict that they lose all perspective and are no longer capable of maintaining any professional distance, which I think is essential when you're doing this kind of work. First, so that you don't completely burn out, and second, so you can remember that everyone involved in the conflict is a human being, and that no conflict can end unless or until the human beings involved allow it to end.

You're not a fuckwit. You were trying to help fellow human beings, and you were doing the best you could. It's not on you that your coworkers couldn't find it in themselves to recognize in you the humanity they expected you to recognize in the people of Gaza. Aid work is difficult, often thankless work, and you were doing it in a context that was particularly emotionally fraught for you because you believed in the work. That only gets my respect. I'm glad to hear your work on Ukraine is better, and that you were able to remove yourself from that situation. Don't beat yourself up; at the end of the day, you reached out a hand to help people. It's not a reflection on you at all if *they* made the choice to slap that helping hand away.

LocutusOfBorgia909

Total-Ad886

It's really rough, but locally most of the people in the liberal and social justice world around me, both doctors, as well as even artists, have outed themselves as deeply anti-Semitic. Many are posting things on social media which are absolutely false. Locally, Jewish friends now fear some liberals more than MAGA, and that's saying something. Not because we buy into online rhetoric. But because of what we see in our personal lives, what we are hearing from people we once trusted. Society's brief decision to suspend anti-Semitism after WWII seems to have been rescinded, and it's getting worse on the left even more so than on the right. Honestly, I don't know what to do. It's terrifying to lose the community you once trusted 😞🫣

DistilledSunshine

Don’t waste time. Get to a) shul b) therapy ASAP. If there’s one thing Judaism is good for, it’s for having your back - especially in situations like this. We’re here for you!

coolsnow7

It seems you have done most of what you wanted and seen most of it all as well.
You do not have to continue this lifestyle.
Go to Europe or USA....anywhere.
Get back into a dailey routine focusing on yourself only.
You need a break.

UpperWord9019

I am so sorry you had to deal with that. These ppl have a reason now to be a Jew hater in public. It’s the same ppl on the far right who hate Jews, and who also hate Black ppl-they felt free to expose their hatred once Trump was elected, and after 10/7. As soon as 10/7 happened Ilhan Omar went on her Jew hating rant and so did Rashida Tlaib.  Ppl are just exposing who they really are. Both opposite ends of the political
spectrum are sick individuals. The fact that you were blatantly attacked at your job would be grounds for an investigation. 

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